Sunday, December 3, 2006 C

"Some Weirdness"
9:56pm

Mild Weirdness, as weirdnesses go:


This design is also
available on a mug.

I came across an interesting quote when I was researching Pierre Boudot. A quote of his came in someone's signature file and so I was curious. I wanted to find out who the man was who said it. While doing that, I found another Boudet quote. I took Google's translation of the French, and Reverso.com's translation of the French to come up with my own translation:

“I hope” he wrote in the Sixties “that my art carries with it three virtues: audacity, without which one is reduced to a burnt sauce; grandeur, to which the thought and the action are ordered; and freedom, by which one wishes to make the world a little less lame.”

I think my art needs MORE audacity, grandeur and freedom! There must be an exhilaration of it!

Monday, December 4, 2006

"Cat on Guard"
6:15pm

When we came home, we found a cat on the corner of our roof. Our approach did not scare him away:


You can see him even more closely if you click on the picture!

I wonder if he is the grown version of one of the kittens that were birthed on our porch last year.

Tuesday, December 5, 2006

"To Find the Pearls..."
7:06am


To find the pearls, you have to go deep...

This might have been inspired by Julia's making of oyster stew this weekend. She was curious about the nature of oysters, so I Wikipedied them and read the results to her. It was fascinating to learn about this odd and ugly creature. They're filter feeders that absorb plankton through their gills.

Julia said while looking at my drawing, "We must be like the oysters that take the grains of irritation and make a beautiful pearl of them." Or not.

Later today, I might make a colored version of this.

Wednesday, December 6, 2006 A

"Animated"
7:07am

As I played with the 'hue' variations on this earlier design, I liked the interplay of color changes and knew I wanted to make an animated gif of it. So I assembled the individual color gradient pieces but I couldn't get Photoshop to work. However I found a trial version of a gif animator online, and it works quite easily.


Wednesday, December 6, 2006 B

"Mighty Set"
7:01pm

While I was at work, I thought of all sorts of possibilities for that animation program. I could do simple cartoons, and maybe even have one of Set throwing a lightning bolt. So I got home, and went about looking for sources to sketch from. I got a nice initial sketch that I really like:

But of course, I'm quite fearful that anything I do to it next will utterly ruin it. However, I at least have this much.


Friday, December 8, 2006

"Horus Changing One"
9:15pm


Set, off stage, "HORUS! You used to be my brother and now you're my NEPHEW?"

Yes, the ancient mythology is just that weird, 'Horus the Elder' and 'Horus the Younger'. I've got my own weird understanding of all this. It's subject to change, but right now I'm viewing the divine complex thusly. Nuit, the 'Mother of the Gods', infinite space and ground of our being, and Set, the one Great of Strength, the Power that energizes everything. He may be a shapeshifter and change his face, but never his ROLE. He through interaction with Nuit, brought about Horus Changing One. Right now I'm seeing Horus as an entity who manifests in a myriads of forms and roles, as needed to fulfull Ma'at (order, balance, cosmic equilibrium). Then it gets even more complex as that which is divine within us humans enters the dynamic cosmic balance.

I really have trouble understanding how some could think ONE entity could do it all!

The sketch above is done from a statuette of Isis and Horus, 330–30 B.C.E.; Ptolemaic period, Egyptian faience; H. 6 3/4 in. (17 cm) at the Metropolitan Museum of Art.

If this image seems familiar to you, it's because you've seen it in a more recent guise:


Image from Wikipedia:
"On the right is Our Mother of Perpetual Help, a famous mediaeval icon of Mary and Jesus; on the left is a bronze statue of Isis nursing Horus dating from the Ptolomeic era of Egypt."
"Isis of Ten Thousand Names", "In many spells, she is also completely merged even with Horus, where invocations of Isis are supposed to automatically involve Horus' powers as well."

Saturday, December 9, 2006 A

"The Mask"
7:31am

The Friday Illo theme of MASK brought to mind an old poem I've written:

The Mask

The hard pride is
only a mask
covering the fearful being
underneath.
It is I,
trembling in the marketplace.
Am I here
hoping to impress?
I know under this cover,
I am blocked, walled in,
and what can I do to remove it?
Come down the barrier,
it is just me,
shivering and trembling.
Are you surprised I twitch so?
All glamour gone
with a single baring.
Do you stare at the
odd pale jelly like thing
that has not ever seen the sun?
It would not be this way
if . . .
if . . .
well, that's what I've got to learn.   
I've taken off the mask,
this is a good beginning.

JAL, 4 - 21 - 03



I wrote this poem over three years ago. And yet it was the first thing to come to my mind for the Friday Illo theme of MASK. I've changed a lot since then. How has my understanding of this poem changed? I think the operative words are 'hard pride'. There is something about 'hard pride' that is a sort of defense mechanism. I've seen a few who walk 'the prideful path' that seem like this. They are fluffing themselves up to look big in others eyes.

Are masks useful? Perhaps, only if we realize they are masks. A mask of 'glamour' is like putting on a fancy dress. We may feel 'different' in that dress. We may feel more 'well dressed' in society. We change 'face' for the different roles we play. Meanwhile the Essence does not change. The sense of vulnerability comes not from Essence. It is a mutable thing of the moment, an awkwardness of expression, a loss for words. The 'hoping to impress' can bring a sort of vulnerability. There are many approaches to it. An easy humility, that relaxes and is okay with whatever others think, the ability to laugh at oneself. And an easy pride, that is content with one's own opinion of one's Self, content that no one else need share that opinion. Perhaps these two, hand in hand, not contradictory, is the best approach.

Thus I wrote in my illo page. As I think about it now, the masks we wear in society, the mutable thing of the moment, how Horian this aspect is, and our unchanging Essence, how Setian.

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